Selamanya Cinta

Akhir Februari ini Bogor tetep aja masih sering ujan. Padahal udah mau memasuki musim kemarau ya. Februari akhir lebih tepatnya masih dalam musim pancaroba. Temen kosan gue 2 orang udah terkena virus influenza. Tapi, alhamdulillah, gue dalam kondisi prima jadi ga ketularan. Udah puas ngerasain sakit waktu liburan di rumah kemaren. Ga nanggung-nanggung sakitnya. Sakit tifus, saudara-saudari! Pyuhh, untungnya ga sampe ke rumah sakit segala.

Well, Februari, like people said, love month. Why? I'm just wondering why it is. Because February 14th? But I don't celebrate it. So what?

Actually, I loose my feeling to love someone. I just feel that I'm same feeling towards people that I like. Which means, I'm not really sure if I love someone or just like him. For me, those feeling are same. My heart isn't beating faster, my hands aren't cold sweating, my lips aren't bitting. It's really different. It's not the love, I guess.

I do, I have felt those. It was in junior high school. My first love, my monkey love. But it was sooo sweet enough. We were always flirting in the class during studying. His eyes are big enough and me, small. He tried to observe me, and so did I. I like watching his activities: playing soccer, sitting, writting, talking with friends but we -rarely-seldom-almost never- talked. But, our heart were chatting. We knew that and I do really love that time.

Now, it's over. He is a strange man for me. I don't know him, I don't know exactly. If only, I could tell my mind to make you believe. I would give all my love to you, forever.

February, rain, glancing, cold morning 06.30, walking behind me. All these remain me at you, my first love. Thank you for that time, allow me glancing with you, and all you had done. Sorry, if I was bothering you. So sorry.